sometimes someone else puts it better

"I'm looking for my birthday, not the anniversary of my birth, mind you, but the original day itself. I'm looking for a lost youth. You might say that this is where are the lost youths come to age, where they all come of age, where they come and where they age, and you'd be right on each score. But I'm not looking for just any lost youth. I'm looking for mine. What about you?" he said softly. "What the hell are you doing?"

i don't know.