My Love Affair With Awkwardness

I've always thought that I was more prone to awkwardness than other people. That I just sort of attracted it to me, or let's be honest, unwittingly initiated it. Looking at it now though, I think it's more that I just don't actively avoid it like most people do. Situations that I know are bound to be a bit uncomfortable for me and/or everyone around me are more interesting. I'm less sure of how I'll react, the outcome's harder to predict, there's just so many more variables involved. And the biggest thing- it's likely to be a situation I've either never been in before or one I've at least never thought out with my usual variety of "what-if"s and corresponding "and-then"s. 

But my real love of Awkward is that it has rarely if ever really let me down. It's made for some of the best stories I'll ever have to tell, and has made so many friendships, relationships and experiences more meaningful and more memorable for it's presence. Awkwardness is what gave me my sarcasm and my openness, my comfort in our companionship has let me be the person that said the things that I might have held back and do so many things I might never have ever done without it.

When it comes down to it, making friends with Awkward has been about accepting the parts of me I'm never 100% sure other people will accept. And they're kind of some of the best parts of me.